Litany of Humility - Warning, this is radical!

Like I said...this is very radical.  I have prayed this before and it has cost me...I still greatly desire to be truly humble but I am careful about how soon and how deeply I desire it.  It's simply not our nature as human beings.

Litany of Humility

O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, hear me.

From the desire of being esteemed, deliver me, O Jesus.
From the desire of being loved, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being extolled, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being honored, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being praised, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being preferred to others, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being consulted, deliver me, O Jesus
From the desire of being approved, deliver me, O Jesus

From the fear of being humiliated, deliver me, O Jesus.
From the fear of being despised, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of suffering rebukes, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of being calumniated, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of being forgotten, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of being ridiculed, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of being wronged, deliver me, O Jesus
From the fear of being suspected, deliver me, O Jesus

That others may be loved more than I, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be esteemed more than I, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That, in the opinion of the world, others may, increase and I may decrease, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be chosen and I set aside, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be praised and I unnoticed, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be preferred to me in everything, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should, O Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

For those who are wondering, to be calumniated means to be spoken badly about, be lied about or falsely accused of something.  To repeat, this is TOUGH prayer...its the kind that takes a scouring pad or something more like sand paper to your heart and gives it a good, long scrub.  Like tough grease it's gotta cut through pride, selfishness and years of being trained to choose what is convenient and comfortable.  And it is only done by grace...pure and undeserved grace!  Jesus...you're so good to us.  So, so good.