Saturday, June 30, 2012

Just a Lil' Dip ;)

Last week I stayed with a fellow teacher at her house for the weekend.  She lives with her 3 younger siblings, parents and grandmother.  They are very much involved in their church.  That Sunday I had the privilege of doing two really awesome things with them.  The first: witness and participate in a river baptism!  The second: work at her family’s taqueria (aka taco stand).  Let’s go back to that first one, shall we?   That Sunday the church was going to baptize 10 people, it had been 5 months since the last baptism.  Abigail (my friend, the teacher) told me that here most churches baptize in pools but there are a good number as well that baptize in El Rio Bravo (The Bravo River) which runs along the border and divides the United States of America from Mexico.  I have heard many a story about old times (before things became so dangerous here) when young people, families, everyone, used to head down to the river to fish, swim and just hang out.  They’d stay out late into the night and have a grand old time.  But when things got really bad here, all of that changed.  These days people still visit the river and do those types of things but much less often and with greater caution.  Whenever I heard those stories I always felt a little sad that I wouldn’t get to enjoy the river as they had before.  So, you can imagine my joy when I found out we’d be going to the river for the baptism!  It was SUPER hot that day and the sun was shining EXTRA bright.  But it was a day to celebrate as 10 new hermanos (brothers and sisters), young and old, were going to take this next step of faith.  The Pastor waded into the water with 2 other able-bodied men (haha, I’ve never used that phrase).  Then the hermanos lined up.  One by one they were completely submerged in the waters of Rio Bravo as a symbol of being washed clean of sin and further committing their lives to Christ.  I remember the pastor’s words “…any anger you have, jealousy you have, addictions you have, leave it under that water.  When you come up, remember that you are a new creation.  In Christ we are all new creations, ‘the old is gone, and the new has come.’”  Each time they came up, we as a congregation sang a baptismal chorus.  I enjoyed it so much.  I was pretty moved that day.  Afterwards we congratulated those who had been baptized.  And after that, we got in the river too!  The little kids jumped in first, then the young people followed.  Yeah, the water wasn’t really clean and we couldn’t get that deep because of rough currents but we didn’t care.  I didn’t care.  I was swimming in a river dividing two countries after seeing people baptized in it…I mean, come on!  For Abigail, her family and her congregation, it may have just been any other day.  But I told her later on that I felt it a true privilege to have been able to participate with them.
    As for awesome thing #2: that same night I went with Abigail to help out at her family’s taco stand.  It is a literal stand – a cart on wheels, outside a pharmacy, located on the main street of Miguel Aleman.  The cart has two large gas griddles where they heat up the meat and tortillas.  They set up 4 tables around the cart with chairs and wait on customers from 7 pm to 2 am (sometimes 6 am on Saturdays).  Thankfully that day we only stayed until 1 am.  Anyway, it was me, Abigail, her brother and another guy named Max.  Max made the tacos while Abigail, her brother and I waited the tables.  I didn’t actually take any orders but I served food, drinks, and cleaned the tables.  I also shredded cheese and did a few other odd jobs.  And as I said before, this was just any old day to Abi, her brother and Max.  But for me – it was a joy to experience.  Doing new things, learning new things from people who are kind and willing to show me and explain things patiently makes me feel alive.  Sharing experiences with people where I can help or lend a hand in any way makes me feel alive.  I feel joy and purpose when I can learn a skill, when I can meet the need of another in some way.  I don’t know if any of that makes sense – and I surely couldn’t express that clearly to Abi in Spanish, as hard as I’ve tried, but God, He knows.  He knows how much that day meant to me and He will honor Abi and her family for inviting me into those experiences with them.  He knows that I haven’t always felt useful or needed here and yet He still provides me with beautiful moments like those where I can celebrate with others or lend a helping hand.  And He knows how unique those experiences were, and reminds me not to forget them and not to forget His faithful and constant provision.

Lord, thank you for being so thoughtful.  Thank you for caring for each one of us enough to find ways to bring us joy, to introduce us to new things, and to show us Your face in the invitations of others.  Open my eyes to always recognize Your gifts.  Help me to feel alive, even in the small things.  I reject the lie that I am useless and trust You to bring me into places where You will use me to glorify Your name.  In Jesus name, amen.


Sunday, June 3, 2012

that warm feeling you get in your heart :)

When I am ignored, my instinctive reaction is to feel hurt; it always has been.  For all you ‘men of steel’ out there, it is a valuable trait to be able to remain unphased and keep moving when you are ignored.  But, I suppose in everyone’s life there is bound to come a time when you meet others that don’t see eye-to-eye with you and you’ve got to reckon with that.  I don’t imagine that you ‘men of steel’ were always so ‘steely,’ so to speak.  I imagine you had to wrestle with that reality yourselves and came to a conclusion that allows you, today, to examine the situation carefully.  I imagine you can check yourself “how might I have offended this person?” and separate the unfair actions of others from any measurement of who you are.  Again, a valuable, valuable trait.

When someone does something thoughtful for me, my instinctive reaction is to feel appreciated and special.  Sometimes, I will even get a warm kind of feeling inside – honest!  Today I need to praise God for giving me one of those moments.  Today, after church, the Pastor and his wife showed me how to make a type of Mexican porkchop, a type of fried filet of chicken, and salsa!  (real salsa, a FAR, FAR cry from Tostitos or anything in that category.)  I have wanted to learn to make a variety of Mexican dishes since I’ve been here but haven’t ever had the chance.  Today was a blessing.  I wasn’t expecting it!  The Pastor took me through everything step by step and patiently allowed me to make nearly the whole meal by myself!  (Risky, haha!)  Everything turned out delicious, at least in my opinion.  I hope to be able to make this meal for my family and friends back at home one day. 

Amen to thoughtful actions.  Amen to warm feelings inside.  Amen to unexpected (good) surprises.  Peace and grace to all those reading this.  God has something thoughtful in store for you.  I don’t know when and I definitely don’t know what it will look like, but He has something thoughtful in store for you.  And when you get that warm feeling near your heart or feel particularly special, remember that God set that up – just for you.  Be thankful for the person or experience, but also, be thankful for your Heavenly Father who just nudged you and said “Hey, I love you.”